"Give me a title" and spring break plans

Isn't this picture just the CUTEST???
Who has a good title for it?
Are there lyrics to a song that could go along with this?
Does it remind you of a favorite Bible verse?


No, I didn't take it. Found it on one of my fav's... flickr (see Links)... typed in "smile"...the pictures just make me smile looking at all 535,270 them! (Just kidding... there really are that many but is obviously impossible to view them all!).

Need feedback people!

We are leaving for the Smokey Mountains on spring break today after school/work. We'll be gone for a week and this caption task will give you something to think about while we are gone! Actually, Tony is taking his laptop from work so we'll be able to check email and hopefully update my blog daily. My next blog update probably won't come until Saturday night (hopefully!).
Anyway, say a prayer for us for safe travel, good weather, and good health while we are gone. Thanks.

Love to all of you, Leah

Just delightful!

Today during my morning prayer with the kids I prayed that God would some how surprise Madison and Quinn today... some how just delight them in a way that they would know that it was God that was working and watching and showing interest in their day. All day I wondered how/if God would "prove" this and prayed that God would answer this little prayer request. When Quinn came BOUNDING into the house he was soooo excited because they got their report cards today and if you get all A's and B's you get a Taco Bell coupon and he got his but his excitement was spilling over because one of his classmates doesn't like Taco Bell and chose Quinn to give his extra coupon too. Do you think that this was God's way of delighting Quinn today? I think it very well could have been... that's how we interpreted it any way. I reminded him of our prayer and he got a big smile on his face and said "Oh Ya!" Madison was also a bundle of happiness and said that this was "just the best day in the world!" ...Now, I quizzed her practically under an interrogation lamp to try and figure out just WHY this was the best day in the world but she honestly couldn't tell me... it "just was". Music didn't go as planned and she was disappointed that she didn't make a goal but nonetheless she was thrilled with her day. I think God answered this prayer in a very simple way... just by delighting her with JOY... which she doesn't always have after a school day. What a simple prayer and what awesome simple answers. Try it for yourself. Ask God to surprise you some way and delight you with something and make sure to watch for it! After all in Psalms 37 we are told to, "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." And since most of you will be reading this on a new day I will say, "Now, go and have a delightful day!"

Love to all, Leah

Babe Ruth

Quinn's Quips...

Driving by the Little League diamonds Madison noticed that there was a game going on. We wondered aloud who might be playing since Concord Little League games haven't started yet. I said, "Well, may be it's Babe Ruth playing" and Quinn said, "Babe Ruth?! How would Babe Ruth be playing? I thought he was dead!" I guess the Babe Ruth baseball league was a new name for him. : )

Tidbits from Tuesday

Wow, we've made it to the middle of the week already. This week has gone much faster than last! Last night the Care Commission at church got together for our last "hooray" by going out for Chinese food at the New York Buffet (dumb name I know). Silverwood has gradually been making a change to a new structure AKA "how we do stuff" and Care is being combined with another commisison. SO, it was a nice evening and every one from Care was there so that was good too. Madison and Quinn spent the evening with Pakka; going to McDonald's and then to Tommy's Kids Castle (a gigantic play area at the local park). I guess Quinn even admitted that they are spoiled a bit by Beppe and Pakka... I think it's more like he has them wrapped around his little finger. They had a lot of fun... the first venture to the park for the season. Beppe was at Bible study in case you were wondering. Tony worked of course and then spent several hours at Victory Construction doing who-knows-what and then stayed up until 1 am working on tax returns at home. Pretty soon I'm going to have to introduce myself and shake his hand.

Tonight we had the Upward Basketball Awards night. I think I mentioned this in Sunday's post. They always look so forward to it. They gave away a few door prizes and "Madison Miller's parents" actually won a fold up chair with the Upward logo on it. That was quite the surprise. We don't need any more outdoor bag chairs but Madison is thrilled with it and of course has claimed it as her own. Tracy K. said she fully expected someone in our family to win something... I don't know what she is talking about. ... ok, ok, ok, Tony did win that $2000 air conditioner one summer from the radio station and Madison won the MP3 player at the fair last year... may be that's what she is referring too. So, it was Madison's name again. May be she and Tony should start playing the lottery or something. The kid's award was a really nice duffel bag that has a special zipped pocket for a basketball and of course it is in the Upward colors with their logo. I really can't say enough GOOD THINGS about this program. It is a nation-wide program and there are several in our area. First Baptist in Elkhart is who runs ours and I think probably 200-300 kids participate. May be more. Anyway it is a great community outreach activity. ...really, can't say enough about it. I should just be their national spokeswoman I guess. : ) Check out my Links section for the address.

That's all of the excitement for these two days. Tomorrow night is our last CFN at church and then I have a board mtg after that so I'm not sure if I'll have time to post or not. What's going on in your lives??? Aren't you bored hearing about mine?

Love to all, Leah

Weekend

Hi, I hope you all had a good weekend. The weather was beautiful today in Indiana... it even was a bit humid which I didn't enjoy but overall it was gorgeous.

The kids had their last basketball games on Saturday. They played at the same exact time so I was walking back and forth between the gyms at the school (Elkhart Christian Academy). Madison had a tough game... she pulled a muscle in her back last weekend and it is still bothering her. She only scored 2 points and only shot like 2-3 times. Her team lost for the 2nd time this season. She felt a little bummed to end her season that way. Quinn had one of his best games ever and scored 10 points. They don't keep score for their games but I'm pretty sure that they won most of them. On Tuesday night they have an Upward Awards night and all of the kids will get to run through a tunnel with smoke coming out of it while they are introduced and then they get an award of some kind. They always look forward to that night, they have a lot of fun.

I made banana bread on Saturday afternoon and homemade pizza for supper last night. Today I made monster cookies for "Quinn's Monster Cookies" which is the name of his bakery that he is setting up on Friday at school and will be selling his "goods" to other 2nd graders with their mini-economy money. I just stuck them in the freezer because I knew I wouldn't have time to make them in during the evenings this week... there are plans every single night. He helped me figure out the cost of his product and helped with a little bit of the scooping but overall I was the (un)hired hand. He has to make a sign to advertise yet and he is hoping I can find something he can use for a tablecloth over his desk and even a baker's hat. The tablecloth should be easy but the baker's hat....hmmm.

Madison cleaned out the van and washed it today. She is still trying to earn money for her 4th grade field trip to Indy. The other night she was all in a worry over her money and whether she would have enough etc... oh, such a young age to have financial problems! Ha! Actually, when you only get $3 a week in allowance you do have to get kind of creative when you need over $100. She has been saving the whole school year.

Other than that, Tony and I stayed up too late on Friday and Saturday watching $1 rentals from Martin's. It's been a long time since we've done that. After church we met Beppe & Pakka for lunch at the Olive Garden. Tony worked on taxes this afternoon and we both watched some of the NCAA basketball games over the weekend. Some of them were pretty exciting.

Well, I hope you each have a good week. I'll pass on the challenge from our church service this morning and encourage each of you to watch for the way that God is working in your life. If you don't look for His ways and notice them, you might just miss them. I'm going to be watching in my life and may be I'll just share about them later this week. Stay tuned...

Love to all, Leah

Monster

Quinn's Quips...

Quinn told me last night that he thinks he needs to start "trimming the hair on my (his) legs". I said, nahh.... boys don't shave their legs, just look at Dad's hairy legs. He said, "well, it's just kind of scarey" and when I asked him why, he said, "well, it looks like I might be turning into a monster." He also explained that his hairy legs have like 1 inch long hairs and that Dad has 3 inch long hairs. I suggested letting them use my curling iron to keep all that leg hair in check....

The ultimate traveling cooler, AKA Purse

The ultimate traveling purse!

Some of you know that I've been in search of the ultimate purse to take on trips... one that doesn't have the traditional strap to hang on my poor aching shoulders. After a few hours I can't stand it anymore, my shoulders hurt so bad. I have to be prepared for just about anything, especially when away from home, so something small just doesn't work. Jen and I combed Phoenix and Angie and I combed Tuscan. I found some that I thought might "work" but decided to be patient. They were either too big, too small, too thin of straps, too expensive etc... WELL, today I was at Target and thought I would get creative in my search so I checked out the lunch box aisle and wouldn't you know it, there sat the perfect purse, uuum cooler. You wouldn't know it was a cooler unless you see the insulated lining which I've decided won't be too bad anyway because we usually take a water bottle or two with us while we are out on excursions. I just had to include these pictures so you could see my $9.99 traveling purse! I'm getting ready to try it out in 1 week when we head for the Smokey Mountains on spring break! If you double click on the pictures you might be able to see it better. The strap in the back zips together to form a wide strap or zips a part to make two backpack type of straps. COOL huh?
What kind of a purse/bag do you like to take when you travel?

Love to all, Leah

Cake Decorating

I'm back in "school"... this time it's something super fun, a cake decorating class at Hobby Lobby. I learned a lot about what I've done wrong in the last several years while attempting to decorate birthday cakes. Tonight we learned how to make perfect frosting and how to get it on the cake without all of the crumbs being mixed in. I feel so enlightened... like, why was this all such a big secret?? Madison went to soccer practice tonight but will get in on the practicing and stuff at the next class (there are 4 classes). We are going to have to be practicing at home so some of you local folks just might get some cakes delivered to you. We certainly can't eat all of it!



Tony is going to coach Madison's softball team again, along with Gordon Bontrager and Darren Miller. They had the draft tonight to make up their teams and Madison is quite thrilled to have some of her good friends on her team. Peyton and Holyn are both on it (and of course Erin and Raeann) and she knows almost all of the other girls as well. Opening day will be here before you know it!

Well, that's all for tonight folks.
Love to all, Leah

PS... Joint Commission never did come this week. ...a week of ...w..a..i..t..i..n..g.. for nothing! Yippee! : )

Keepin' my day job

Well, Annie the CPR mannequin liked me so I guess I'm keeping my day job and putting my dreams of being a grocery check-out girl on the back burner. Cheryl and Addi from work were laughing at me because I was worried about passing this! I told them I didn't want to "wiff" on such an "easy" thing... yes, I've gone through much worse testing in my career! Let them laugh...! They aren't the ones taking it! (Hi guys!) I "noticed" every time our door opened today to our department (let me tell you, it's a lot) because I was sure that JCAHO would come visit today... nope. I guess tomorrow morning is their last chance. It's been a long week of waiting for them to come!

Tonight was CFN at church and I was the substitute for Quinn's class. The teacher got sick today and so I was the "desperation" back-up. Those kids have a lot of energy! It was nice out so we went and played a few games outside. A high school student was there for crowd control but she looked a little too nice and sweet for me so Tony came along as the bouncer for awhile. He always spices things up. I was telling the kids a few rules while outside such as if anyone picked up the (very tempting) rocks next to our grassy area and threw them (after I witnessed this, it caused the rule to be made), they would have to sit out but Tony pipes in, "No, that means I get to throw them at you!" Thankfully most of the 12 kids know how to take his jokes by now.

For those of you that know Chad & Kathy Eberly... her mom passed away very early this morning (3am-ish) after a heart attack last night. She's had quite a few health problems over the last years but I'm pretty sure none were heart related. Keep them in your prayers if you would.

Well, that's all for tonight. We finally are on the downhill stretch to the weekend.
Love to all, Leah

Unconscious basketball player

Quinn's Quips...

Last Saturday Quinn had a great play in his basketball game. He stole the ball from another boy who was dribbling in one place forever (looking for someone to pass it to) and dribbled down to his basket and scored. I was complimenting Quinn on this play after the game and his recollection of the play was, "yeah, I just waited until he was unconscious and then stuck my hand in there and stole it." The dribbling did go on for quite a long time... may be he really was unconscious! : )

If anyone would like to see the footage, this proud mom has it on video!

Forgotten password

Hello faithful readers... I'm so sorry it's been so long since I've written on my blog. I actually couldn't even remember my password... seriously (and it's only been 5 days)! I had to have Blogger email it to me! Pathetic! Just think how many passwords and numbers we all have to remember to get along in this world. I thought I would list them here but there are too many for me to think about right now.

It's only Tuesday but it feels later in the week to me...it should be at least Thursday night by now. It's been busy so far. We have Joint Commission at the hospital this week. They are the governing body that gives hospitals their accreditation and is the whole reason that insurances reimburse hospitals for services. Needless to say, their visit is a little on the important side! We used to know when they were coming but now they are 100% unannounced visits. They showed up yesterday morning and will be here through Thursday. I was hoping so badly that they would visit our department today... just to get the interviewing and inspections over with but they didn't come yet! I also gave a presentation to a cancer support group from 4:30-6pm tonight (which is no big deal... just a longer day than usual) and now "look forward to" renewing my CPR license tomorrow. That is not usually a big deal but unfortunately "someone" keeps changing many of the little steps to take and of course you have to get all of the steps right! I tried watching the updated DVD last week at work but kept getting interrupted and the dept. I borrowed it from wouldn't let me take it home. Oh well... I guess if I don't pass they can send me home and then I could avoid the JCAHO inspection... hey, not a bad idea! Just for you medical folks (and those of you who might care)... did you know that the ratios of compressions to breaths is now 30 to 2?? ... better build up those deltoids because if you are doing CPR you are going to need them!

Madison had Flames practice tonight that Pakka took her to. They are outside practices now. Did I write about that last week?... can't remember, anyway... she pulled a muscle in her back over the weekend by jumping on Heather's trampoline and is having trouble running. I hope that shapes up soon. She went to bed with a heating pad tonight. She is quite excited about her first ever BRAND NEW pair of soccer cleats. Can you believe that? I try to be a penny pincher if I can, our bank account agrees with us better that way. She's played soccer every possible season since the age of 4 and I've always gotten her shoes at Play It Again Sports or garage sales or hand-me-downs. So, after she wrestled her way into her shoes on Saturday and about up set the van from the wrestling, it was time for a new pair. Tony took her and bought this COOL pair that has this extra padding in the back and you take it out as your foot grows and it gives you a whole 'nother size... so it's like buying 2 sizes in one shoe. Pretty awesome huh? They are metallic blue and silver and match her Flames shirt. She even wore them home from the store. Ha!

OK, I really must head upstairs to finish folding the mountain of laundry on my bed. I really wish I was home all day to get this house stuff done. I could be such a good housewife. HA! oh well... not in my cards I guess. Actually my dream job is to be a grocery check-out girl and scan groceries all day. May be if I don't pass my little CPR test and demonstration I can just go and pursue that. Did you know that doctors don't have to have CPR certifications and never take CPR classes?.... Comforting to know that your doctor's last CPR class was probably some time back in med school huh? Sorry to be the one to break it to you but I 100% guarantee that things have a-changed since then!

That's all for tonight; I'm starting to whine and annoy myself.

Love to all, Leah

Church, 4H, Cakes

Hello Everyone,
It's been a busy week... yesterday afternoon I had a meeting at church at 4pm so I went straight there after work. The kids got off at Karla's house. She helped them with their homework and everything... and brought them to church for supper and then CFN. So, it was about 8 or so by the time I got home for the first time yesterday. That's Tony's type of schedule... not mine. He did join us for supper at church though... and then went back to work.

Tonight Madison went to her first 4-H Dairy Club meeting. She is going to show a calf, "Maybelle" at the fair. Maybelle hasn't been born yet but she's hoping for a girl. She had a lot to say when she walked in the door, sounded excited but then said, "That was so boring!" and so I said, oh, so you probably don't want to go back? and she said, "Oh, yeah, I really want to go back!" and was quite serious. So, she really did have a good time but I guess she couldn't keep up with the club's presenter. Mind you, this is for 3rd graders through senior high-ers so the embryo transfer stuff just didn't click. Ha! "They were talking about mucous and stuff."... but she was totally lost. : )

I was supposed to go with Madison to my first cake decorating class tonight (minus Madison) but it ended up being cancelled tonight because the Hobby Lobby (Holly Hobby as Bepee says) lady didn't have enough people. A friend from work and our neighborhood is also going (Michelle & Maddie) but they hadn't signed up yet. She called and told them she was coming and that she would pay when she got there but I guess the lady didn't believe her. Michelle and I think she had something else she wanted to do tonight instead. SO, the first class is now next week.

That's all for tonight. Drop me a line and let me know how you are.
Love to all, Leah

PS... Taylor Hicks is coming to the 4H Fair!

Quinn's thoughts on Tigger's lack of motherhood

"I'm so glad that we never made Tigger have babies.... because she might have gotten diabetes...or... she might have even died if one of her kittens was too big for her."

New Role at Church

Sorry I haven't posted for a few days. This crazy daylight savings time is for the birds and now we are all getting up an hour earlier and feeling tired all day because of it. Last night we tried to go to bed early... like 10:30 so we could get up earlier but I just kept laying there thinking, "it's really only 9:30 and I'm not that tired." Oh... the "problems" I have. (insert sigh here)

I have a new role at church now. Tonight was my first meeting as the congregational vice-chair person and 30 seconds after arriving I quickly put 2 and 2 together and realized that the chair wasn't going to be there and I was looked at to chair the meeting! Well now, that was an interesting experience... I hardly knew what I was talking about! We made up an agenda and went from there. Now I need to put whatever-it-was-that-we-talked-about into minutes (until we appoint a real secretary). (Really it wasn't quite as bad as I'm making it sound to be).

I always have many excuses as to why I can't do something, shouldn't be the one to have to do something, am not qualified, am too busy, it's not the right time in my life, we're gone too much on the weekends etc, etc, and etc. When they asked me to take on this new role of course my mind launched into all of the excuses, ready to pull any one of them out of my hat at the precisely needed moment to decline. I heard myself saying that I would consider it, pray about it and get back with them (who said that... was that me?). So, I did just that and guess what... my excuses just didn't fly with God! Can you believe it?!! So, I said yes to God's will and will try to leave all of the thousands of details for Him to figure out. I found this "poem" and was comforted by it. (see below) I certainly won't be a great hero of the Bible but it helps to know that I'm "probably" not the first leader who has felt a little anxious about new responsibilities or didn't feel qualified for the job. Ha.

When God Sends People...They Make Excuses:

Abraham was too old.
Moses stuttered.
Miriam was a gossip.
Jacob was a liar.
Gideon doubted.
Elijah was burned out.
First David's armor didn't fit, then he had an affair, and had someone killed.
Solomon was too rich.
Isaiah had unclean lips.
Jeremiah was too young.
Jonah didn't like the job.
Amos's only training was in the school of fig-tree pruning.
Naomi was a widow.
Peter was afraid of death.
Thomas was from Missouri (the "show-me" state)
Paul was a murderer.
Mark was rejected by Paul.
Timothy had ulcers.
Lazarus was dead.
Martha was a worry-wart....

or so they claimed, before God's Spirit empowered them to rise to the occasion and become some of the greatest heroes of our faith.

Italian Pasta & Bean Soup

Karla brought over this soup one night and it was delicious! She made it with fresh herbs and I think that makes a big difference. Treat yourself while the weather is still cold and try some!

Italian Pasta and Bean Soup

1 medium onion, cut into 8 pieces
2 medium carrots, cut into 2-inch pieces
1 rib celery, trimmed and cut into 1-inch pieces
¼ lb. fresh fennel (½ of a small bulb), tall stalks and leaves discarded and bulb cut into cubes
1 large clove garlic
2 teaspoon olive oil
2 cups canned chopped tomatoes with juice
4 cups chicken or vegetable broth
1 cup cooked or canned white beans (she used the entire can)
½ cup short tube-shaped pasta (ditalini or tubetti)
Salt and pepper
2 tablespoons each (or more as needed):
Fresh basil
Fresh parsley
Parmigiano cheese

Combine onion and garlic in a food processor and process until finely chopped (or chop by hand). Heat olive oil in a 4-quart saucepan over medium-high heat. Add vegetables and cook until they soften (2-3 minutes). Stir in tomatoes and broth. Bring to a boil. Cover, reduce heat to medium-low and simmer 20-30 minutes. Add beans and pasta and cook, stirring frequently, until pasta is al dente – about 10 minutes. Season with salt and pepper to taste, stir in basil and parsley. Garnish servings with cheese.

Buck Teeth

"That boy knocked his head right against my buck teeth and my buck teeth just went down into him."

Where he got the term "buck teeth" I don't know but he definitely doesn't have them and he was very serious while referring to his top front teeth.

Quinn's Quips

The dictionary defines the word "quip" as this...

quip –noun
1. a clever or witty remark or comment.
2.a sharp, sarcastic remark; a cutting jest.
3. a quibble.
4. an odd or fantastic action or thing. –verb, "to utter quips"

Tony is always after me to write some of Quinn's comments down. My response has always been, "but it's constant... I can't walk around with a notebook in my hand." His solution suggestions were to carry a note pad in my purse or start a Word file and record them there. Finally Madison said tonight, "you've got to write that down in your precious moments book" (I have no idea what she is specifically referring to). OK, OK, OK... I'll try. I know most of them probably won't be funny to a reader... because it makes a difference with the intonation in his voice, the setting etc... but I've consented to try. I'll keep a list going for a while and occasionally post them on my blog under the "Quinn Quips" and under "Labels" in the blog column.

The reason for Madison's urging tonight was because...Madison, Quinn and I were enjoying our supper at the table which consisted of spaghetti and among other things some corn on the cob. Now mind you... it is March in Indiana and yes, the corn on the cob was frozen and yes, it had been in our freezer for quite some time. First he saw me eating my corn on the cob and suddenly was quite worried that my teeth must be bleeding somewhere... well, I actually have had a toothache lately but no, it was just some of my spaghetti sauce that brushed against my ear of corn. He took a few bites of his corn and then inquisitively asked, "Does this have a paint ball in it?" I said, "What?... what do you mean a 'paint ball'?" Madison started laughing and then interpreted for him... in the movie Dennis the Menace, Dennis accidentally blew a glob of paint onto Mr. Wilson's grilled chicken and the comedy movie showed him trying to chew away at it. Apparently Quinn thought perhaps the same thing happened to his corn on the cob. No, no paint ball... but perhaps some freezer burn. "That's OK Buddy, you don't have to eat it anymore."

Select Comfort Bed

We have a new bed! Saturday was Tony's first day off in 5 weeks and he spent several hours putting our Select Comfort bed together. Just as advertised, it came in 6 different boxes. I bought new bedding...not the Plow and Hearth ones that I was dreaming of a few weeks ago but rather the Target brand of a bed-in-a-bag version. Ha! Actually it matches the carpet perfectly. Hopefully you can make out a little of the design by double clicking on the pictures. So, now we are trying to figure out the answer to the commercial's question of "what's your number?" We've slept on it for 3 nights so far and I'm amazed at how firm I like my side and Tony's side is quite soft. It's the perfect mattress for a couple who can't agree on a regular mattress where you both have to like the same firmness. I'm so excited! We've needed a new bed for a long time. I've promised my bed that I would be back as soon as possible when getting out of it in the morning! ; )

Bluffton Baseball Team

If you haven't heard about the tragedy endured by this baseball team, just turn on CNN or any other news show. Our church, Silverwood, has a lot of ties to Bluffton... actually more than we do with Goshen College and they are only 2 miles away. Our good friend Eliza graduated from Bluffton as did quite a few others from Silverwood. Several of our teens have gone or go there. A tragedy of this type is unimaginable... to try and grasp the pain of these families. This is the type of thing that keeps me awake at night. We will never know on this side of heaven why bad things like this happen... and to such good people. It reminded me right away of Olivet's bad accident and when 3 of my friends were killed... 2 of them close friends, Cindy and Alex. It happened in the Fall after my graduation so we were married and had just moved to Goshen. I remember how difficult the grieving was... to grieve "long-distance" without anyone who knew them. That was tough. I can remember crying and crying in a room with people who weren't feeling any of the things I was feeling. I don't think a Fall has gone by when I haven't thought of that accident and the friends that were "supposed" to be at my stage of life by now. Anyway, this is a round about way of saying that my heart hurts for these families and also for the friends who often are overlooked while going through the grieving process on their own as well. I pray that something good can come out of a tragedy like this.

These verses brought me some comfort tonight. Perhaps you will again be reminded of God's sovereignty as well.

Nehemiah 9:32-33
Now therefore, O our God, the great mighty and awesome God, who keeps his covenant of love, do not let all this hardship seem trifling in your eyes -- the hardship that has come upon us. ... In all that has happened to us, you have been just; you have acted faithfully.

Isaiah 45:11-12. 24
Concerning things to come, do you question me about my children, or give me orders about the work of my hands? It is I who made the earth and created mankind upon it. My own hands stretched out the heavens; I marshaled their starry hosts. ...In the Lord alone are righteousness and strength.

Praying for a peace that surpasses all understanding,
Leah

Spam Blog?

I'm trying to post on my blog tonight and I'm getting this "Warning" message that my blog has been blocked by "Blogger's spam-prevention robots." WHATEVER! I had to type in a given code but could take 2 business days for them to humanly review it! SORRY! It says I can keep "drafts" of my posts but cannot post them right now. OK, this is inconvenient but there are worse things in life... but I'm locked out of my own blog.